Deviant’s Angel

  • It’s My Party

    February 4, 2020 by

    Close to the end of February, I’m having a very special party hosted by Sir. Not a dinner party with cocktails, hors d’oeuvres, salads, blah, blah, blah. Nope, this little gathering of ours has a much more sinister note to it. Sir is hosting my first gangbang, and I’m a bit apprehensive. This event has… Read more

  • Him

    January 27, 2020 by

    There have been lots of “hims” in my life. More than I can count (I think I stopped counting shortly after high school). There have been a wide variety of “hims”: the Bolivian tennis player, the Navy Seal, the diamond dealer, the co worker, the random guy in the bar, and countless others. But there… Read more

  • Remnants

    December 24, 2019 by

    Remnants are small remaining quantities of something. I had remnants of former relationships when I came to my current Dom. Most disguised as “friends”, “just friends”, “someone to hang out with”. However, as benign as that may sound, it was an inaccurate state of affairs. Most of those relationships ended for whatever inconsequential reason I… Read more

  • Normalcy, Value and Fears

    December 2, 2019 by

    I tease Sir frequently that aside from our private lifestyle, He is the most normal person I know. I crave that normalcy and He is my perfect balance. I have struggled with depression, anxiety and a personality disorder most of my life so I’ve always looked to others to provide me with that; however,I usually… Read more

  • Buy/Sell/Trade

    December 2, 2019 by

    As a collared submissive, I am owned. We had a recent conversation about the type of property I am. The word commodity was part of the discussion, but I am not a raw material to be bought and sold on a whim. Nor am I stock where others have a stake in me. The conversation… Read more

  • Promiscuity

    November 18, 2019 by

    More often than not, my topics are chosen for me. However this week I had the option to choose my blog topic myself. Promiscuity is defined as a person who has promiscuous traits which in turn means an undiscriminating or unselective approach. Promiscuity sounds as if it could be applied to relatively anything, but in… Read more

  • Impact Play

    November 11, 2019 by

    Impact play is about one of the worst things, shy of public humiliation, that I can do in our Master/Dominant – slave/submissive relationship. I don’t like it; it hurts, and I get extremely angry about it most times. If you’ve seen some of my FetLife photos, you’ll notice I’m fair skinned and although you haven’t… Read more

  • Natural Tendencies

    November 4, 2019 by

    I can’t give you a specific date that I decided I was a BDSM “submissive” . There’s no magic potion or formula to create a submissive. We just..evolve. When God created me, He made me with natural submissive tendencies. We all have tendencies of some sort. And mine are to be submissive in most settings… Read more

  • My Bucket List for My 46th Year on This Planet

    October 27, 2019 by

    According to my Dominant/Master angel’s annual goals are as follows: 1. Make 52 different people cum. I find it amusing that Sir has decide on “people” and not just men. 2. Dominate a man with impact play. I abhor submissive men. I cannot fathom why a man would be like that. So this shall be… Read more

  • Ownership

    October 14, 2019 by

    An important factor in a Master/slave or Dominant/submissive relationship is ownership. He owns me; no different than owning a pet, a couch, or a truck. And while that may seem odd and degrading to most “normal” people, it is the most freeing sense of calmness and peace that any human can attain on this little… Read more

  • Bio

    October 14, 2019 by

    I am a native southerner; born in North Carolina and raised in Mississippi. My mother and father divorced when I was an infant and my mother remarried before I entered kindergarten. That one lasted until I was about 11 years old. I was raised from that point forward predominantly by my mother and grandmother. My… Read more

  • Introduction

    September 27, 2019 by

    Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken. — Oscar Wilde. This is not your ordinary blog. As I am no ordinary person.

  • Disobedience

    November 23, 2020 by

    As a three year old submissive I could make many excuses for why I am frequently obstinate in obeying Sir’s commands and denying His requests. However, I don’t think there are any “real” reasons why I do so. One theory we frequently discuss is that I am safe, secure, loved and accepted in this relationship… Read more

  • Self Awareness

    November 19, 2020 by

    According to most research, humans don’t become self aware until approximately 18 months of age. Self awareness is loosely defined as how humans interact with their surroundings and, more importantly how we interact each other. Which then divides into awareness of our selves in public and in private. A power exchange relationship causes a constant… Read more

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I am a bit of a mess. On the outside, for all intents and purposes, I am just like everyone else…mother, mom, caretaker, daughter, acquaintance, employee, friend, lover, etc.; but to Him, I am everything.

So I will be 46 years old in a few weeks and for most of my adult life I have been in one relationship after another. Most of them mundane, until this last year when I discovered the “lifestyle”.

In addition to all of my other titles, I am now His submissive/slave. My life is dictated by rukes, protocols, and expectations. Most of them common, i.e. making the bed every morning, and some of them a bit different, i.e. I can only wear one brand of panties and only two styles. While it may seem odd to some, I thoroughly consent to every bit of it.

This blog is to chronicle my life and experiences with my Sir as a submissive/slave. It will discuss everyday events, thoughts and feelings. And other times it will tell of the more graphic issues of the BDSM lifestyle.


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